Yearly update...

Damn. For some reason, I just CAN'T stick to this stuff. Okay, new extremely late new year's resolution: blog.

I'm a hell of a good writer, according to people who have read what I write, and my skills are withering due to the fact that I just don't have anything I want to write about. So now, I'm going to try to post something daily just to get back in the habit of writing, to keep the creative juices flowing. I have to write lyrics for new songs we're writing. Oh yeah, I'm in a new band. Kinda happened by default, as I moved in with the guitar player for a band that I used to sing with (I mentioned them in a previous post a few years ago. LOL) We're writing some pretty good stuff, and I have to come up with lyrics so in order to get me to a place where I can do that to my own standards, I need to write as much as possible.

So if you care, or even come across this blog and notice it's not being updated, message me and give me a virtual slap upside the head. I NEED to do this.

Thanks

Damn, I suck

Yup. I know. I rarely update this thing. Not like anyone ever views it anyway... This is just another blog taking up space on the internet.

So yeah, I'm working a second job now. Cable on the weekends. I started out installing these little digital to analog converter boxen so that people can get all their basic cable channels. Now they have me doing trouble calls. Bigger pain in the ass, but more money, so I guess it works out. Pretty cool when you get paid $25 to change the channel on someone's TV back to 3. Sucks when you have to rewire their house...

I'm still not in a band. Not recording anything at home. I suck.

Here's something I need to start doing. I'm going to post spots I've done for work so I at least have SOMETHING to update on a regular basis.

Well, on second thought... clients might not want to be associated with this blog full of ranting and other bullshit.

Maybe I'll start a "professional blog". Ha

Posting on the intertoobs is for suckers...

I love StumbleUpon. You could say I was addicted to it. If they would only make a SU bar or Stumble button for Safari, I'd leave Firefox alone.

So I StumbledUpon (or is it StumbleUpon'ed?) an atheist blog entry called "I have been outed" and it reminded me of my own recent "outing" to my fundie family members. I won't repost the story here, but you can look for my comment on the Everything Else Atheist blog page I linked to above.

I may be opening another can of worms by posting that there, because I didn't realize that the damn Blogger login uses my actual name instead of PinheadX. I might have to fix that now.

Oh well, it's not like the cat's still in the bag.

I've use WAY too many stupid metaphors in this post. Oh, well... back to the grind!

broken promises...

yeah, I suck. I said I'd post more often... attempt to post daily or whatever...

nope.

can't do it. The things that are interesting in my life are way too private for me to comment on. This isn't anonymous enough to really let loose on. I am so damn busy during the day that I can't seem to even use Twitter more than a couple of times a week, and at home, I'm not really in the mood to do anything but surf the intertoobs and watch a bit of TV or movies or whatever, and hang out with my wife (who is fucking awesome). I don't even get to hang out with my kids very often during the week because I'm working late pretty regularly.

So, I guess I'll try to use this more often to just rant about shit... maybe throw some ideas out there.

keeping my promises

Yeah, so... I'm trying to get in the habit of posting regularly, so here I am again.

I just wrote a big thing about how money is tight, but I really don't wanna go there again, so I'll just say...

later.

long time no see

Okay, apparently I'm a total fucking spaz and wrote one damn blog entry, then skitzed off into oblivion for the last three years or so. I threw up a few blog posts on my myspace page over the last few years, but I can't seem to be bothered to actually blog on a regular basis.

I'm "reclaiming" this blog because things are really bothering me lately, and I feel like using this to deal with them, exorcise personal demons, etc.

So what's going on now in my world... Still no band. Not for real, anyway. I sing with a band, but I'm not "in the band" officially, so I don't exactly claim them as mine. I like everyone in the band... they're friends of mine. We hang out, make music, goof off, whatever. They are really good musicians, and I think I'm definitely on the same page musically as them. They're just not wanting to commit to me because I'm singer number what... 4? I think. I'm not mad, I just wish I knew I was in or out. I want to write music with these guys, and work on new stuff, and I can't because of the situation.

I also have my ProTools rig set up so I can do my own stuff, and I got an acoustic guitar a few months ago, so I'm writing stuff again. I need to get a nice, quality electric again. My BC Rich has a bad neck (and apparently is lost at Dante's studio somewhere) and my other electric is a 7 string Fender, which is a good guitar, but a seven string isn't the same animal as a normal six string guitar. Just like a bass isn't just a larger four string version of a six string. They are different instruments, and they are played differently. Similarly, but different enough to make a big impact on how you play and what you play. At least, that's my opinion of it...

So, I've written some stuff. Some of it is really cool, but none of it is in a finalized format... I need to start recording the parts and doing some arrangement. It's not exactly easy, because my ProTools rig is at one of the places I work, and not at home, so I can't get on the machine and start recording right when the mood strikes me. I try to record really shitty rough recordings with my laptop at home so I don't lose things I come up with. Eventually, I'll have something to show everyone.

Other than that, hrm... what else?

I finally accepted that I'm a full on positive Atheist. I'd been pretty anti-religion for a long time, and I'd been seeking something for a while before that, and before that, I was raised "Christian", but didn't really ever 100% agree with it anyway. I finally am okay with there not being any gods, or greater meaning in life, and I'm content to make the best life I can here on this planet, in this time, because it's all I get. Unless they come up with that "download your brain onto a flash drive" thing before I die. Please don't attempt to "convert" me to Christianity or any other belief system. I've already heard all of your arguments. They are completely invalid. No hard feelings, but you lost.

Oh, and I discovered Stumble Upon. I mean, I didn't "DISCOVER" it and go showing it to everyone else on the intertoobs, but I started using it a few months ago... addicted? yup

I'm really going to try to start using this blahgue on a regular basis. It's not that I don't like to blog, but I just don't really remember to do it. Maybe now that it's hooked up with gmail, I'll be reminded to use it.

Later.

GODDAMMIT!!! I JUST WANNA BE HEALTHY

Fuck, having allergies sucks. Having a two week span of my voice being fucked up because of allergies sucks even worse. Having a COLD after just getting my voice back after two weeks FUCKING SUCKS HAIRY COCKS!

Anyway, after all that, my voice is still in limbo. I really need to take some voice lessons so I can get it stronger so that when I abuse it, it can recover faster. Singing like Killswitch is cool as hell, but murder on my precarious vocal threshold. Of course, my own songs don't tend to stress my voice, because I know my limits, but I'm always trying to get better. The little bit of vocal excersizing I'm doing is helping, I think, because I'm able to hit notes I was having trouble with a couple of months ago much more easily. Damn, I need money. Too bad I don't have tits... I could totally be a camwhore. :)

I got a pm on a messageboard I'm on from a guy who wants me to sing for his band. I listened to their current stuff on their website, and their current singer (whom the guy describes as OK) is fucking atrocious, but not really his fault. He needs voice lessons, or a better mix so he can sing on key. The worst part of what I heard was the gawdawful lyrics. I mean, I wrote better stuff in junior high. I hope they don't want me to sing that shite. I can't do it. I once tried out for Kruller, and they had me sing "Bonded by Blood" by Exodus. That shit is some stupid, ridiculous garbage, and I don't see how any metal fans worth their salt could ever think that was tolerable. AND IT JUST KEEPS GETTING WORSE!!! I tivoed Headbangers Ball... and theres this band... fucking Three Inches of Blood, I think the name was. FUCKING HORRIBLE!!! I mean, if "Bonded by Blood" had bad lyrics, it was definitely in the infancy of metal, but this shit is after we've gotten serious bands who write meaningful lyrics, and it's FUCKING LAUGHABLE! If you're a metal band, you don't use the term "warriors of metal" or some such lame bullshit as a lyric in your songs. Unless you're Spinal Tap or Darkness, where we know it's a joke.

Well, the search goes on. Still trying to either join a decent band, or start an awesome one. If I can find a decent band, I can make them awesome by joining, and if I start one, it will be awesome by default.